typical teenage girl

I MISS MY FAMILY
Mama, Ayah, Anis, Una, Imi

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out of sudden

No more intention to listen about it anymore. I cried over a friend who seek for me when she is in a bad condition. I cried over a friend who just pretend to like me. I cried over a friend when that particular friend ignore me. I cried over a friend who keeps on scolding me. I cried over a friend who pretend that she don't know me. I cried over a friend who don't appreciate me as her friend. I cried over many kinds of friends. Physically and mentally, I'm no satisfaction of what I have discovered.

I never thought of doing this again, posting whatever craps in my mind. Despite that I should be doing my tons homework and complete my oral text at time like this. But today I have this kind of aura inside me, to actually update this blog.

When I was doing Physics, and the questions are absolutely indescribable, a few people slipped through my mind. There are moments when we were having our ups and downs. No doubt that friendship is like a roller coaster. I went through it all. Somehow, I dislike it, it still taught me priceless lessons that I'm sure that I'll adapt it in life sooner.

I always think that I know how to deal a friendship. How to take care of our friendships. Actually, I am not that good. I might cry on your shoulder, asking for your advices. You are there, just there till things are over. Then you will slightly disappear. Ignoring every single hi from me. Maybe you think this is a total absurd but it really hurts me, deeply. You have your friends, who will always guide you around, laugh with you all day long. I might not be like them, I do not know how to be like them. I might not be that assuring to you. So I move on.

You may come to me when you have problems. Problematical matter that you cannot solve it on your own. You said thank you, and I am smiling from ear to ear. But things just stopped there, when everything is on track again. I kept on saying who am I to you. You find it hilarious, but that is the only way I want you to recognize my present. Sorry to say, I felt contented when you have problems.

I stand straight now. I have my own pride. I can always befriend with whoever I want. There is no you in me to tell me what should I do. I treat you special because you treated me once. I used to be the leftover, walk on my own, thinking about myself. Sorry if I hurt you, cause I'm just a human. And I don't get away from doing mistakes.

I do not find you serious, that is why I hardly believe when you missed me. I confide it, but how about you? You can go deep to someone, but that someone is not me. Little touched, yes I am, but I think I can still handle it. With just a silly argue, we end up like this. I hope you are in a good condition now. Sorry for all the tears I shed, and tears you shed.

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Maybe some of you will find this post a total irritating and meaningless because I've always bought up a story of friends and how I have problems with my friends and etc. Sorry to disappoint you but this is what had cross my mind. And I do confess it here, whether you like it or not.

Week disorder

Sport's day was hell fun. We had a blast shouting and screaming. Go BRASSI! ♥ from what we had confide, our team is number one (:

Earth hour! We are saving the earth by turning off the lights. The views were great

The Proposal was cool. Lagi cool bila tengok dlm bilik minda. Oh yeah! we are the rules-breaker (:

so cool, so fool

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I don't go with once upon a time
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you are a figment of my half imagination
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money is love. and you need money to get love
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I do bring along my friends on a ship
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I have high hopes but low hardworkness
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I adore school books, but I'm not loving it
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My friends are like money
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a loser's confession

Lets talk about bestfriends. Okay rewrite, how about friends. Okay senang lah, friendship. Dekat rumah, things are like, okay. Kepala tak serabut and all of that cs my friends are always there. They won't leave me behind, diorg akan usung I sekali smpi lubang cacing sekalipun.

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I went through my pictures, ada lah memories in my so-called precious school. And ada these some pictures yang memang gila lah, putar balik time form 4 dulu. Sedih pun sedih jgk. Cause even though ktorg mmg 'together' as in together yg sebelah sebelah, but we were barely talk to each other.
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Gedik, aku sayang kau lah. Kau tau tak tu? Tak kan? Kau tak pernah tau? You wouldn't even care whatever i think. Apa aku buat tak pernah betul, semua nya salah je. Kan? Cakap je la wei. Cium peluk kau everyday pun tak kan change anything. Aku je asyik kiss butt kau everywhere, nak puaskan hati lah katakan. Kau tak bosan ke kita always gaduh je, sejak first kenal wei. Gaduh kawan gaduh kawan, sampai bila, buah hati ku oi! Tak penat ke? Kau pun tau kan berapa byk kali dah kita gaduh. Aku tau apa yang kau nak sebenarnya, sampai sekarang kau still hoping kan pasal tu. I can see it in your eyes. Tapi consider lah orang yang depan mata kau ni. Kau ingat aku tak terasa ke segala apa yang kau buat selama ni, but aku diam je lah. Aku tak nak lah tunjuk macam aku desperate gila kan, jatuh la maruah. Aku tau kau benci aku, kau kan muak tengok muka aku. I know everything, and there's nothing you can hide from me HAHAHA sorry lah. Alasan kau selalu sama je. Bangga la sikit wei, post ni special untuk kau. Since aku dah tak cerita dah masalah aku dekat orang lain, sebab diorang pun dah muak dah dengar benda yang sama, my blog is a great listener. And I know kau pun tak kan baca kan (:
Sorry la hadiah kau macam loser sikit, but simpan je la eh. Even though kau macam nak bunuh aku ke, simpan je.