Hell frustrated

OHEMGIEE
I haven't done my folio
I haven't done my essay
I haven't started packing yet
I haven't completed my homework
I haven't rearranged my files yet
I haven't bought anything yet
I am so not ready for school!
I wish I can just stay home

what if I wanna be deep?

To be honest, I've been a very bad girl since I moved to that so-called heavenly hell. So, I think this is the best time to let everything go, like start my precious 2010 with a brand new start. making peace to everybody, so there are no hard feelings. Okay, lets get it started!

Mira Yusleeza,
This is my gedik-pendek friend. Mira, kau baik dengan aku, sangat sangat. Sorry if aku ada sakit kan hati kau ke, buat kau terasa ke, sorry sangat. Kau je yang aku rasa tak pernah susah kan aku. Thanks for always be there for me. I owe you so much, and I don't know how I'm gonna repay you. Kau selalu dengar cerita aku, even though kau tak nak, tapi kau dengar jgk. And aku tak kisah, cause aku just nak org dengar je problems aku. Thank you thank you so much! ♥ Kau la yang selalu care pasal aku. Aku sakit ke, nangis teruk teruk dalam kelas ke BAHAHA, kau je yang datang dulu. Haha sayaaaaaang kau babe! Sorry kalau aku banyak menyusahkan kau, aku selalu buat orang mcm tu. Hee. You'll think this is a total creep, but actually kau important sangat dekat aku. Tak kisah lah kau rasa benda yang sama ke tak, but aku anggap kau macam tu. And I still remember 12th of July. Kau je yang lupa! :p

Nur Fariha,
Haha Farihaaaaa! First of all, kau jadi la monitor tahun depan, senang aku nak pergi kelas kau, tehee. Awak, kita sorry sangat if kita ada sakitkan hati awak. Awak pun baik dengan kita jgk. Sorry kita tak selalu dengar advice awak. Memang kita degil pun. I should have listened to you. macam weird je tulis kita awak dekat sini, okay tukar kejap. Start aku kawan dengan kau, problems aku macam okay sikit. Aku dah tak nangis dah every night, and aku boleh accept reality sekarang. Kau lah yang buat aku redha pasal dia. And I am thanking you. Thank you so much! Sorry if aku selalu peluk kau, I show my appreciation through huggings. And aku tak pernah regret tkar tempat dengan Farah. Serious, kalau kau takde, merana hidup akuuu! Haha ♥

Nurul Alwani,
Wani kawan spastik kuuu, actually my mentee. Eh kau lah yang lagi pro dari aku. Bluekk :p Wani, sorry if aku ada terkasar bahasa, tersalah bicara. Cikgu, dia bukan PRS ke laut lah! Dia banyak tolong saya okay? Hee. Kau memang serious funny. Muka kau pun dah boleh buat lawak xD best sangat kawan dengan kau. Nanti next year kau jangan lah lupa aku eh. Kita rehat sama sama tau. kau tu dah la text aku pun tak balas, heih

Fatin Najwa,
Hei youuu. Haha. Wicked mommy. Fatin Najwa sangat lawak gila. Huu salah tatabahasa. Dia i best, try la kawan dengan dia. Sorry tau if aku ada buat salah. Salah dan silap mohon dimaaf, GAHAHA. Susah sikit nak serious dengan dia ni. Dia lah orang yang selalu cakap I gedik, even though I'm not. Jadi gila gila je if kawan dengan dia, besttt! Sayaaaaaang kau, wuhuu

Farhanah Aziz,
Hanah kawan comel kitaaa. Hanah sorry tau if kita sakitkan hati awak. Terguris tak? Hee. Rindu lah Hanah, dah la tak dapat jumpa dia. Thank you tau sebab jadi kawan kita. Best gila kawan dengan dia. Nanti dia suka buat 'yiokk yiokk' dia tu. Baha comeeel :p Lepas tu if dia ada camera dia tu, semua orang jadi gila nak take picturess. Hanah pun jangan lupa kita tau? *macam desperate tak?*

Afiqah Aisyah,
Haha kau. Aku just nak cakap sorry and thanks for everything. Aku rasa macam banyak sangat buat salah dekat kau. Aku try nak jadi perfect nak kawan dengan kau, but it's hard. And I failed. But ni tak penting dah. I'll leave you alone. Aku tau apa kau kejar sekarang, and aku pun tengah redha pasal kau. Honestly, susah lah juga nak redha macam tu je, but I'm trying my best. Betul la cakap diorang, kau tak patut kawan dengan aku. Aku ni dah la bagi bad influences dekat kau. Thank you sebab pernah buat sekolah tu best bagi aku. And aku tak pernah lupa apa kita dah buat dekat sekolah tu sampai semua orang benci kita, kan? kan? Wehee! Takpe, kau pun dah jumpa jalan yang betul kan, so good for you. Aku selalu doakan kau. And I know, dia akan baik juga balik dengan kau :)

Ira Izzura,
Iraaaaa, I am so. so. so. so Sorry! I tak berniat pun nak sakitkan hati you. Seriously. sekarang, I tak kisah lah apa orang lain nak cakap dah, baik ke tak ke, I still nak kawan dengan you jugak. They don't have the right to say what is wrong and what is bad for me, and I know, kawan dengan you is not a bad thing to do. Thanks for always be there for me. I love you ♥ I tak rasa you pengaruh apa apa, it's up to them who they wanna be. Hope we can still be great friends. Takde 'three of us' pun, 'two of us' pun jadi lah. We can still live with that, right? Gee

Illi Nur Ashikin,
Illy, I tau you marah gila I sekarang ni. Kan? I macam rasa you tak suka dah kawan denganI. And I am so sorry :( Sorry if I sakitkan hati you. Maybe we can start it all over? I tak nak you benci I. Kawan dengan you best tau. And you are right, I tak patut kawan dengan dia sorang je. I miss you badly. Hopefully next year you dah tak marah I lagi dah. Thanks for everything babe! Please jangan tukar sekolah? Tehee

Nur Ezzaty,
Ezzaty my hot-hottah sexy babe! Wahaha. Thank you Ezzaty sebab selalu dengar problems kita. Kau baik sangat wei! if aku ada apa apa je, kau mesti datang. Giving advices and all of that. Aku appreciate sangat. If kau ada terasa ke, I am so sorry! Aku tak berniat pun. *bajet innocent* Memang patut lah Qis jadikan kau PRS. You are like the best ever. Even though takde lah menjadi pun nasihat kau tu, but at least ada lah sikit kan? Haha. Sorry if aku selalu duduk tempat kau. You love me kan? hee <3

Helparlova,
Korang, sorry if kita bising gila macam nenek kebayan yang nak beranak! kesian korang kan? Nak study pun susah. Kita sorry if ada sakitkan hati korang. You guys are the best! Sumpah tak tipuu. Maybe kita bayak misunderstanding, but I still love you guys. And about that time yang nak kemaskan kelas haritu, sorry sangat Hazreen. We weren't like talking about you actually. And I am pretty scared you jadi macam tu. Sorry. Suka sangat tangkap gambar dengan budak budak kelas ni. Gambar kitorang lawa kan? Always! ♥

Brassidium One,
Semua tak suka kita kan? Haha sorry sangat korang. Biha, Aimi, Ally, Adlin, Teeros, Hanna, Wadhi, Nina, Azie, Diyana, Faridah. Diorang baik, kita je jahat. Thank you sebab layan kita dalam dorm tu. Biha, kita sorry sangat. About everything. And kita ingat lagi time tengok Harry Potter tu. Outing tu lah my first and last time keluar dengan friends. Thanks sanagt korang :) Teeros, kau jangan tukar katil. Aku nak tidur sebelah kau balik. Gee

Te amo, amigas ♥

they can be talkative

one night,

You: What if this is my last I love you?
Him: I'm gonna miss you!
You: You jangan la main mian. I serious ni
Him: Kenapa you tanya I macam ni plk?
You: Takde lah, something will happen, and kita tak tau kan? Maybe illness, or accident -___-
Him: So, hope je lah 'that' thing is not gonna happen
You: What if I nak juga cakap this is my last I love you?
Him: You..
You: Apa?
Him: You nak break dengan I ke?
You: Kalau i cakap yes, you marah tak?
Him: Kenapa you tiba tiba je nak break ni? I thought kita okay je
You: Like, when is the last time kita jumpa?
Him: Like, YESTERDAY!
You: Okay, so that is not a good one
Him: Kenapa you ni? Apa I buat?
You: Tak, you tak buat apa apa pun
Him: Then?
You: Sebab I rasa kita susah nak contact cause I duduk boarding school, and I call you pun weekends je
Him: Have I ever complain about that?
You: Memang la you tak pernah, but I rasa.. entah lah
Him: Senang je you nak tinggalkan I kan? *crying*
You: Leaving you is the hardest thing I've done within my hundred years
Him: You jangan nak main main boleh tak?
You: Sorry, I nak you cheer up je. You jangan la nangis, nanti I rasa guilty sangat
Him: Tak fair la you buat I macam ni
You: Seriously, I'm sorry! But bagi I, ni memang fair
Him: Apa yang fair nye?
You: You know I love you kan, and I always do
*BA-HA-HA ni dramatic gila*
Him: Me too, and I tak nak relationship ni end
You: I'm sorry :(
Him: If you nak restart balik this relationship, you just tell me. Okay?
You: Okay :)
Him: Nanti sape nak teman I tidur lambat?
You: Ala, you kan ada Rina?
Him: You break dengan I sebab dia ke?
You: One of the reasons
Him: I takde apa apa la dengan dia, HONESTLY!
You: Takpe lah. I nak tidur la you. Goodnight
Him: Goodnight sayang
You: Please..
Him: Okay, sorry

*few minutes later*

You sent Him a song

Him: Bukan patut nya I ke hantar lagu ni dekat you?
You: Entah laa

It all started on 12th of February 2009 and ended on 11th of December 2009
exactly 10.48

Love E.

i have nothing to say,

I get bored easily.


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Don't you mind reading this one. I am being dumb and noob and pathetic
I vomited yesterday, two times.
Tummyache, I gilaaa sakit.

By the way, i hate my school fullstop
Be pleased with my thoughts
And I owe you nothing

"oh my tummy"

Does my headline sounds weird? Oh I think so.
I am not going to write about my freakish headline now, actually I do not know what to write.
Last two days I went to Sunway with my friends, oh yeah we had so much fun. Right? Aren't we? *Laugh Out Loud*
And today I am on period pain. Like on period pain, is it? so like usual, sakit perut gila gilerrr. you do the 'errrr' part. Ahaks
And teringat dulu kalau period pain dekat sekolah tu mesti golek golek atas katil peluk perut Haha. Then, guna Ira punya minyak or Aisyah punya bam panas tu. Or or *what are you? A seal?* guna minyak Adlin tu, apa nama dia? Best la period pain dekat sekolah. katil dua tu lah jadi mangsa, and the owner sebab I asyik meraung golek golek dekat situ je. Lalalala not my fault that wicked tummy felt extremely wicked. Geez.
Lepas tu mesti Kak Bila gelakkan then suruh letak hot water dekat perut. After that, bila dah okay, nanti Kak Syida pulak kate "dah okay?" Ahh rindu duluuuu. Senior dorm Brassi 1 actually not that bad. Sorang dua je yang suka mintak penyepak! Haha
Nanti masuk kelas bawak la air tuam tu, and Fariha mesti 'ewww' dgn air tu. Eleh, air tu dalam botol, nak geli apa. Boleh minum eh, hot water from the famous water cooler depan dorm! Aha. And Mira orang first tanya "Huda, kau okay tak?" haha sayang kau wei!

tak nak balik SESERI, but sekolah tu actually banyak sangat memories. So nak create new memories on 2010. mesti lagi best. Tak tau lah. Hopefully, Cattleya will keep me living.
saja tulis dwibahasa :p alright

this is how tears look like

The great examination and interpretation of mine seem yet to come and conquer this whole entire body. Physically and mentally. I am trying to stay focus on one scene, this one extraordinary scene that no one could ever replace it, nor obliterate it. They have given me chances to improve myself to be a better person, and unfortunately, I did not give a damn what they were giving to me. Now, I need to become the warrior of my life, the one that will forever stand by my side, protecting me. This one last chance they are giving me, I will not let these thoughtful people manipulate this sixteen-yet-seventeen old girl.

Appreciation has yet discovered, and honestly, I am loving it. Shed tears when all your beloved taking care of you, and hoping that you will be cared enough. To not want to see you hanging around this loiters in front of the shopping mall. To not want to see you coming back home late cause you when clubbing with guys you knew three seconds ago. And to not want to see you become a spoil brat cause you always beg your sugar daddy to buy you those unfortunate stuffs that you can't afford. These are when it is the right time for you to shed tears.

Maybe Fariha was right. Maybe Mira was right. Maybe Wani was right. Maybe Fatin was right. Maybe Hanah was right. Maybe Illy was right. Maybe Ira was right. Maybe Adlin was right. Maybe Aimi was right. Maybe Teeros was right. Maybe Biha was right. Maybe Ezzaty was right. And maybe Ally was right. I do outspoken. And I am very out and very open. Cause I know, Aisyah was right too :) even though there were ups and downs and sometimes I cannot forgive whatever these people have done to me, but actually they are teaching me to become a better, a superior person.

Sumpah tak tipuuuu

So Niels Bohr said, "Einstein, stop telling God what to do!"

I am stuck in this enormous dwelling, feeling regret that I can’t be joining them gathering at pavi. And again, you can delightfully blame the Bibik of mine. Oh Gosh, why were you not coming to work? All of sudden when I need you the most? Oh well, life goes on. There must be some valuable lessons that I can learn from this whole thing. For example, I now realize that I am good in cleaning my mansion. Oh yess, I do keep myself sanitary. So today I face my big problem, I sneezed a lot. And I am still sneezing, like everyone said, "Get that stinky mucus out of my nose!". Now, my best bud is my handkerchief, cause I'll go everywhere with it, and I won't let it go. *Haaaaacumm

I do not have the idea what to write in this blog, and I am getting bored of it. I haven't done a single thing on my homework yet my assignments. I should be working on it now. Time doesn't wait for me. People are just busy with tuition and stuff, and I am still thinking of joining them, or not. I don't know. I don't feel like going to tuition. Hello, SPM is on its way! duhh Huda, wake up *roll eyes

Thou, I am believing myself. Do not worry

my Hands and Feet

Haha, I am missing you guys. Extraordinary, oh yes I am, tehee.
There are some pictures of them who made it the most supreme, particularly in that so called hell.
It is nice to have friends in prison, cause you will forget that you are living in a dungeon.
and my longest post, perhaps

Album of mine :)

Hanah and Fariha, tehee

My friends are mine<3

Sayaaaang Mira :p

My superb wierdoss

Big lens -___-

Klcc view

I hold on tight, Adlin comeeel =_=

That's why I love them

Hanna is there!

We took pictures :)

We laughed everyday xD

They said, we are loud!

Still loving them <3

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Brassidium One

That is why we are Helpilia :)

Helparlova!

They lighted my day

This is Fatin Najwa

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Meet Wani, Fariha, Hanah, Fatin

They are what i call Friends, gee
Missing A Lot, Huda