Hell frustrated

OHEMGIEE
I haven't done my folio
I haven't done my essay
I haven't started packing yet
I haven't completed my homework
I haven't rearranged my files yet
I haven't bought anything yet
I am so not ready for school!
I wish I can just stay home

what if I wanna be deep?

To be honest, I've been a very bad girl since I moved to that so-called heavenly hell. So, I think this is the best time to let everything go, like start my precious 2010 with a brand new start. making peace to everybody, so there are no hard feelings. Okay, lets get it started!

Mira Yusleeza,
This is my gedik-pendek friend. Mira, kau baik dengan aku, sangat sangat. Sorry if aku ada sakit kan hati kau ke, buat kau terasa ke, sorry sangat. Kau je yang aku rasa tak pernah susah kan aku. Thanks for always be there for me. I owe you so much, and I don't know how I'm gonna repay you. Kau selalu dengar cerita aku, even though kau tak nak, tapi kau dengar jgk. And aku tak kisah, cause aku just nak org dengar je problems aku. Thank you thank you so much! ♥ Kau la yang selalu care pasal aku. Aku sakit ke, nangis teruk teruk dalam kelas ke BAHAHA, kau je yang datang dulu. Haha sayaaaaaang kau babe! Sorry kalau aku banyak menyusahkan kau, aku selalu buat orang mcm tu. Hee. You'll think this is a total creep, but actually kau important sangat dekat aku. Tak kisah lah kau rasa benda yang sama ke tak, but aku anggap kau macam tu. And I still remember 12th of July. Kau je yang lupa! :p

Nur Fariha,
Haha Farihaaaaa! First of all, kau jadi la monitor tahun depan, senang aku nak pergi kelas kau, tehee. Awak, kita sorry sangat if kita ada sakitkan hati awak. Awak pun baik dengan kita jgk. Sorry kita tak selalu dengar advice awak. Memang kita degil pun. I should have listened to you. macam weird je tulis kita awak dekat sini, okay tukar kejap. Start aku kawan dengan kau, problems aku macam okay sikit. Aku dah tak nangis dah every night, and aku boleh accept reality sekarang. Kau lah yang buat aku redha pasal dia. And I am thanking you. Thank you so much! Sorry if aku selalu peluk kau, I show my appreciation through huggings. And aku tak pernah regret tkar tempat dengan Farah. Serious, kalau kau takde, merana hidup akuuu! Haha ♥

Nurul Alwani,
Wani kawan spastik kuuu, actually my mentee. Eh kau lah yang lagi pro dari aku. Bluekk :p Wani, sorry if aku ada terkasar bahasa, tersalah bicara. Cikgu, dia bukan PRS ke laut lah! Dia banyak tolong saya okay? Hee. Kau memang serious funny. Muka kau pun dah boleh buat lawak xD best sangat kawan dengan kau. Nanti next year kau jangan lah lupa aku eh. Kita rehat sama sama tau. kau tu dah la text aku pun tak balas, heih

Fatin Najwa,
Hei youuu. Haha. Wicked mommy. Fatin Najwa sangat lawak gila. Huu salah tatabahasa. Dia i best, try la kawan dengan dia. Sorry tau if aku ada buat salah. Salah dan silap mohon dimaaf, GAHAHA. Susah sikit nak serious dengan dia ni. Dia lah orang yang selalu cakap I gedik, even though I'm not. Jadi gila gila je if kawan dengan dia, besttt! Sayaaaaaang kau, wuhuu

Farhanah Aziz,
Hanah kawan comel kitaaa. Hanah sorry tau if kita sakitkan hati awak. Terguris tak? Hee. Rindu lah Hanah, dah la tak dapat jumpa dia. Thank you tau sebab jadi kawan kita. Best gila kawan dengan dia. Nanti dia suka buat 'yiokk yiokk' dia tu. Baha comeeel :p Lepas tu if dia ada camera dia tu, semua orang jadi gila nak take picturess. Hanah pun jangan lupa kita tau? *macam desperate tak?*

Afiqah Aisyah,
Haha kau. Aku just nak cakap sorry and thanks for everything. Aku rasa macam banyak sangat buat salah dekat kau. Aku try nak jadi perfect nak kawan dengan kau, but it's hard. And I failed. But ni tak penting dah. I'll leave you alone. Aku tau apa kau kejar sekarang, and aku pun tengah redha pasal kau. Honestly, susah lah juga nak redha macam tu je, but I'm trying my best. Betul la cakap diorang, kau tak patut kawan dengan aku. Aku ni dah la bagi bad influences dekat kau. Thank you sebab pernah buat sekolah tu best bagi aku. And aku tak pernah lupa apa kita dah buat dekat sekolah tu sampai semua orang benci kita, kan? kan? Wehee! Takpe, kau pun dah jumpa jalan yang betul kan, so good for you. Aku selalu doakan kau. And I know, dia akan baik juga balik dengan kau :)

Ira Izzura,
Iraaaaa, I am so. so. so. so Sorry! I tak berniat pun nak sakitkan hati you. Seriously. sekarang, I tak kisah lah apa orang lain nak cakap dah, baik ke tak ke, I still nak kawan dengan you jugak. They don't have the right to say what is wrong and what is bad for me, and I know, kawan dengan you is not a bad thing to do. Thanks for always be there for me. I love you ♥ I tak rasa you pengaruh apa apa, it's up to them who they wanna be. Hope we can still be great friends. Takde 'three of us' pun, 'two of us' pun jadi lah. We can still live with that, right? Gee

Illi Nur Ashikin,
Illy, I tau you marah gila I sekarang ni. Kan? I macam rasa you tak suka dah kawan denganI. And I am so sorry :( Sorry if I sakitkan hati you. Maybe we can start it all over? I tak nak you benci I. Kawan dengan you best tau. And you are right, I tak patut kawan dengan dia sorang je. I miss you badly. Hopefully next year you dah tak marah I lagi dah. Thanks for everything babe! Please jangan tukar sekolah? Tehee

Nur Ezzaty,
Ezzaty my hot-hottah sexy babe! Wahaha. Thank you Ezzaty sebab selalu dengar problems kita. Kau baik sangat wei! if aku ada apa apa je, kau mesti datang. Giving advices and all of that. Aku appreciate sangat. If kau ada terasa ke, I am so sorry! Aku tak berniat pun. *bajet innocent* Memang patut lah Qis jadikan kau PRS. You are like the best ever. Even though takde lah menjadi pun nasihat kau tu, but at least ada lah sikit kan? Haha. Sorry if aku selalu duduk tempat kau. You love me kan? hee <3

Helparlova,
Korang, sorry if kita bising gila macam nenek kebayan yang nak beranak! kesian korang kan? Nak study pun susah. Kita sorry if ada sakitkan hati korang. You guys are the best! Sumpah tak tipuu. Maybe kita bayak misunderstanding, but I still love you guys. And about that time yang nak kemaskan kelas haritu, sorry sangat Hazreen. We weren't like talking about you actually. And I am pretty scared you jadi macam tu. Sorry. Suka sangat tangkap gambar dengan budak budak kelas ni. Gambar kitorang lawa kan? Always! ♥

Brassidium One,
Semua tak suka kita kan? Haha sorry sangat korang. Biha, Aimi, Ally, Adlin, Teeros, Hanna, Wadhi, Nina, Azie, Diyana, Faridah. Diorang baik, kita je jahat. Thank you sebab layan kita dalam dorm tu. Biha, kita sorry sangat. About everything. And kita ingat lagi time tengok Harry Potter tu. Outing tu lah my first and last time keluar dengan friends. Thanks sanagt korang :) Teeros, kau jangan tukar katil. Aku nak tidur sebelah kau balik. Gee

Te amo, amigas ♥

they can be talkative

one night,

You: What if this is my last I love you?
Him: I'm gonna miss you!
You: You jangan la main mian. I serious ni
Him: Kenapa you tanya I macam ni plk?
You: Takde lah, something will happen, and kita tak tau kan? Maybe illness, or accident -___-
Him: So, hope je lah 'that' thing is not gonna happen
You: What if I nak juga cakap this is my last I love you?
Him: You..
You: Apa?
Him: You nak break dengan I ke?
You: Kalau i cakap yes, you marah tak?
Him: Kenapa you tiba tiba je nak break ni? I thought kita okay je
You: Like, when is the last time kita jumpa?
Him: Like, YESTERDAY!
You: Okay, so that is not a good one
Him: Kenapa you ni? Apa I buat?
You: Tak, you tak buat apa apa pun
Him: Then?
You: Sebab I rasa kita susah nak contact cause I duduk boarding school, and I call you pun weekends je
Him: Have I ever complain about that?
You: Memang la you tak pernah, but I rasa.. entah lah
Him: Senang je you nak tinggalkan I kan? *crying*
You: Leaving you is the hardest thing I've done within my hundred years
Him: You jangan nak main main boleh tak?
You: Sorry, I nak you cheer up je. You jangan la nangis, nanti I rasa guilty sangat
Him: Tak fair la you buat I macam ni
You: Seriously, I'm sorry! But bagi I, ni memang fair
Him: Apa yang fair nye?
You: You know I love you kan, and I always do
*BA-HA-HA ni dramatic gila*
Him: Me too, and I tak nak relationship ni end
You: I'm sorry :(
Him: If you nak restart balik this relationship, you just tell me. Okay?
You: Okay :)
Him: Nanti sape nak teman I tidur lambat?
You: Ala, you kan ada Rina?
Him: You break dengan I sebab dia ke?
You: One of the reasons
Him: I takde apa apa la dengan dia, HONESTLY!
You: Takpe lah. I nak tidur la you. Goodnight
Him: Goodnight sayang
You: Please..
Him: Okay, sorry

*few minutes later*

You sent Him a song

Him: Bukan patut nya I ke hantar lagu ni dekat you?
You: Entah laa

It all started on 12th of February 2009 and ended on 11th of December 2009
exactly 10.48

Love E.

i have nothing to say,

I get bored easily.


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Don't you mind reading this one. I am being dumb and noob and pathetic
I vomited yesterday, two times.
Tummyache, I gilaaa sakit.

By the way, i hate my school fullstop
Be pleased with my thoughts
And I owe you nothing

"oh my tummy"

Does my headline sounds weird? Oh I think so.
I am not going to write about my freakish headline now, actually I do not know what to write.
Last two days I went to Sunway with my friends, oh yeah we had so much fun. Right? Aren't we? *Laugh Out Loud*
And today I am on period pain. Like on period pain, is it? so like usual, sakit perut gila gilerrr. you do the 'errrr' part. Ahaks
And teringat dulu kalau period pain dekat sekolah tu mesti golek golek atas katil peluk perut Haha. Then, guna Ira punya minyak or Aisyah punya bam panas tu. Or or *what are you? A seal?* guna minyak Adlin tu, apa nama dia? Best la period pain dekat sekolah. katil dua tu lah jadi mangsa, and the owner sebab I asyik meraung golek golek dekat situ je. Lalalala not my fault that wicked tummy felt extremely wicked. Geez.
Lepas tu mesti Kak Bila gelakkan then suruh letak hot water dekat perut. After that, bila dah okay, nanti Kak Syida pulak kate "dah okay?" Ahh rindu duluuuu. Senior dorm Brassi 1 actually not that bad. Sorang dua je yang suka mintak penyepak! Haha
Nanti masuk kelas bawak la air tuam tu, and Fariha mesti 'ewww' dgn air tu. Eleh, air tu dalam botol, nak geli apa. Boleh minum eh, hot water from the famous water cooler depan dorm! Aha. And Mira orang first tanya "Huda, kau okay tak?" haha sayang kau wei!

tak nak balik SESERI, but sekolah tu actually banyak sangat memories. So nak create new memories on 2010. mesti lagi best. Tak tau lah. Hopefully, Cattleya will keep me living.
saja tulis dwibahasa :p alright

this is how tears look like

The great examination and interpretation of mine seem yet to come and conquer this whole entire body. Physically and mentally. I am trying to stay focus on one scene, this one extraordinary scene that no one could ever replace it, nor obliterate it. They have given me chances to improve myself to be a better person, and unfortunately, I did not give a damn what they were giving to me. Now, I need to become the warrior of my life, the one that will forever stand by my side, protecting me. This one last chance they are giving me, I will not let these thoughtful people manipulate this sixteen-yet-seventeen old girl.

Appreciation has yet discovered, and honestly, I am loving it. Shed tears when all your beloved taking care of you, and hoping that you will be cared enough. To not want to see you hanging around this loiters in front of the shopping mall. To not want to see you coming back home late cause you when clubbing with guys you knew three seconds ago. And to not want to see you become a spoil brat cause you always beg your sugar daddy to buy you those unfortunate stuffs that you can't afford. These are when it is the right time for you to shed tears.

Maybe Fariha was right. Maybe Mira was right. Maybe Wani was right. Maybe Fatin was right. Maybe Hanah was right. Maybe Illy was right. Maybe Ira was right. Maybe Adlin was right. Maybe Aimi was right. Maybe Teeros was right. Maybe Biha was right. Maybe Ezzaty was right. And maybe Ally was right. I do outspoken. And I am very out and very open. Cause I know, Aisyah was right too :) even though there were ups and downs and sometimes I cannot forgive whatever these people have done to me, but actually they are teaching me to become a better, a superior person.

Sumpah tak tipuuuu

So Niels Bohr said, "Einstein, stop telling God what to do!"

I am stuck in this enormous dwelling, feeling regret that I can’t be joining them gathering at pavi. And again, you can delightfully blame the Bibik of mine. Oh Gosh, why were you not coming to work? All of sudden when I need you the most? Oh well, life goes on. There must be some valuable lessons that I can learn from this whole thing. For example, I now realize that I am good in cleaning my mansion. Oh yess, I do keep myself sanitary. So today I face my big problem, I sneezed a lot. And I am still sneezing, like everyone said, "Get that stinky mucus out of my nose!". Now, my best bud is my handkerchief, cause I'll go everywhere with it, and I won't let it go. *Haaaaacumm

I do not have the idea what to write in this blog, and I am getting bored of it. I haven't done a single thing on my homework yet my assignments. I should be working on it now. Time doesn't wait for me. People are just busy with tuition and stuff, and I am still thinking of joining them, or not. I don't know. I don't feel like going to tuition. Hello, SPM is on its way! duhh Huda, wake up *roll eyes

Thou, I am believing myself. Do not worry

my Hands and Feet

Haha, I am missing you guys. Extraordinary, oh yes I am, tehee.
There are some pictures of them who made it the most supreme, particularly in that so called hell.
It is nice to have friends in prison, cause you will forget that you are living in a dungeon.
and my longest post, perhaps

Album of mine :)

Hanah and Fariha, tehee

My friends are mine<3

Sayaaaang Mira :p

My superb wierdoss

Big lens -___-

Klcc view

I hold on tight, Adlin comeeel =_=

That's why I love them

Hanna is there!

We took pictures :)

We laughed everyday xD

They said, we are loud!

Still loving them <3

Sharing...

Brassidium One

That is why we are Helpilia :)

Helparlova!

They lighted my day

This is Fatin Najwa

We are liking this
Meet Wani, Fariha, Hanah, Fatin

They are what i call Friends, gee
Missing A Lot, Huda

I am Mad

"huhu.nex yer die xde.
sedey ouh. :("

Why I do not know anything about this? and just why? How can you be so selfish! And you think I do not care. I will not care less. You think it is easy for me to wake up tomorrow and realize that everything that we have spend together is a whole bunch of shit.

Serious aku nak maki, mencarut kau sekarang ni. We, too, okay, me especially. Me, Huda Aiman is very pissed off 'cause I know nothing about this. Though you are not going to read this, I am still freaking mad at you.
*tears*

Fly With Me

do not laugh, but really, i heart Nick Jonas <3

Gift of A Friend

The world comes to life,

And everything is alright

From beginning to end

When you have a friend

By your side

That helps you to find

The beauty of all

This is by Lovato, oh how much I love her songs. And her, yess I do love her.
A story of tinkerbell, even a little not-exist fairy can have this type of relation that is very strong and pure. And me, a homo sapien, fully exist in this real world do not have this type of relation.
True, difficulties and obstacles we have to go through to reach the very high
(Little Miss Confident)

"Apahal makcik ni asik nak emo jee?"
"Suka hati aku la!"

ThinkPad

Don't you exaggerate whatever i said, cause that is absolutely, not fastidious. Bringing you people to the center makes me want to vomit, throw everything inside this belly-cious tummy. I ate a lot today, ayam kicap, ayam goreng, ayam kukus, ayam rebus? Illy would like that, I know for sure. I am waiting for the others to send me pictures and to let you know, i have been waiting for like 48 hours! haha hiperbola. dua hari dah laa, gee. Somehow, resting my butt on this chair made me think how valuable my time was, being in that school even though we were doing nothing. The time of my life have yet come and i don't really think this is my time of life. Just think, why do I have to spend my time sitting on this couch while I can do other things that are more beneficial than doing this. Let just say, i can talk, but I do not know how. Cakap je, tapi tak amalkan. Something like that. I read my previousss posts, I do sound weird, am I? That was when I did not have the skills to blog, or to express my thoughts. *sekarang mcm ada je LOL -_-

I am wearing my bloodish reddish t-shirt, the one that I love the most and I still am. And I am wearing my black slack, the one that I bought two months ago. Why am I describing all these? Ahh, let the world decides. I want to continue reading books but I just not in the mood. I am in the mood of doing nothing and i think that is one useless mood ever. I need pills to control, to balance my emotions cause I think my hormones are turning upside down, lefty righty. pffft (?) I will totally focus on my studies next month and i will live up my holiday this month. Still, my plans are on the next month, but who cares? My life, I decide. Be pleased and pleasured.

Phone's charger is making me piss, and I still am pissed off with that suckish fucking damn charger. I am bored, please help me! Why do you have to be so cruel to me? I am one innocent little girl, who is crying for help because her phone's charger won't work. Bad super electrical device! My brother is crying and I honestly do not want to care what the damn that they are doing, but as a responsible sister, I do not want to let them down. I took my guts along with me and yelled, "What is wrong with you people?" and he said "She started it". I kindly closed the door and went back downstairs and continue writing my blog. How liable I am :)

I think that is all for now
with that, I thank you

Goldness

Friends are people that you think are your friends
But they're really your enemies, with secret identities and disguises, to hide their true colors
So just when you think you're close enough
they will come and cut your throat when you aren’t looking

You just have to dig harder to find the right meaning of true friendship.
You do not walk out, do not abandon, do not throw them away, to be friends with a friend.
Of all the friendship I've experienced; there are good and bad friends.
They taught me many lessons, and they have opened my eyes to see the real world
Fantasy aren't that cherish to you
Live in reality and seek for happiness, cause it ain't hard if you are wise

Just be thankful to your friend
Cause they are sturdy enough to concern about you
Friendship is delicate as a glass, once broken it can be fixed but there will always be cracks

Still, I got my gold-ish friends and they are my so-called angels <3

a memoir

Happy Holiday!

nothing much to say
students are joy with this pitiful month
oh yeah,
it is our day
people, lets holiday!


wishing you people, SELAMAT HARI CUTI
as they said,
Cuti Untuk Tambah Ilmu

my fellow schoolmates, we got works to be done, geez
may God bless them
Aminnnnn

Drooving

My time is up.
Apologizing to everyone.
I can't get away with the mistakes I've done.
Sorry to say
I am imperfect, too not a perfectionist

I blissed my life with the people around me
Losing one may be hard
I'm still learning
Accepting the reality

I can't only dream for fantasy.
Only my head can play that around
You come and show me
How this thing works out

Sticking to what I've learned
'Sharing is Caring'
My battery double A is running out of power
Huda is kindly moving out
:p

Crack

Crawling. Walking. Running
Ways to achieving my future

I'm heading back to my awesome-lish castle
Pray for my present and my future

I'll be seeing you guys next "Pulang Bermalam"
Off I gooooooooooooooooo


*Rindu Pak Guard! :p* E <3

final.final.final.final.

Hospital Madness

see, this shows that i love my Illy so much. I'm updating my blog! Now, i'm mobile blogging. Like, update my blog through mobile. Confused? Yes you are (mcm orang lain tak pena online blogging je :p) my battery is low, i only got few minutes to talk craps in this crappy blog. I hope you guys don't mind. Take a minute to go through this blog, then you can kindly click the (X) button to blaaah, ngee. I don't think i have time to celebrate my raya with my friends, bcs i haven't celebrate it in penang yet. Since my lovely sister is having her medication in the hospital, we, are having our healthy lifestyle in the same room in the hospital. Yet we are healthy, gee :p

There is no description to describe my day today. One filthy boring day. Eventhough today is the third day of raya, i just can't feel the RAYA inside me. How many times i wrote 'raya'? I texted people, like usual duuhh. Don't wow or make that big frightened eyes yet, but most of them are having a weird raya, like me, they don't felt it in them. Gaah, it's the end of the world. People, bertaubat!

By the way, i bought a new book. No Time For Goodbye! I didn't finish up the previous one yet, and the stand-by one. Huda is greedy, TAMAK! God is testing me, to choose or decide what's good or what's bad. I'm learning, one step at a time

WARNING: you don't have to read all these. Crazy is what you can tell
Hugs kisses from me
Huda is off to eat, lapar!

Week to Raya

first and foremost, *i need to greet, am i?* okay then. Assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh.. cikgu (?) this is not for teachers. I am waaay out of that school, fyi. I'm having my plesant hols with my beloved, pfft. Speaking of school, something bizzare happened last week, like all the days of that particular week, gee. Weird huh? I know. *i'm not copying you mira*
believe me?
Nope?
Still not?
Then let me tell you my story. Like duhh, this is my blog
I'm not gonna simply talk about that man sitting along that street begging for coins :p i am very rude, am i? Huda, i thought you want to be a good girl. You promised, right? *smiling showing that shining rabbit teeth*
Okay okay, back to main topic people. Hello, don't get all twisted up to Canada right now. Why Canada? Geez. SESERI was hell SESERI last week. Wait, this week, still, right? No, no. Already monday. Monday was like usual, Tuesday, i got into a trouble with one of my seniors, Wednesday, Majlis Khatam Quran was held (it was kinda fascinating being the bunga telur girl and tamu saji) *don't ask to many Q's.
one more thing, my 'a trouble', ended up being a major trouble among the seniors. Gaah! Akubudakmasalah. Never got into this one before. Huda is no longer a girl next door, she is from the next block :p i experienced! Hurray to me, i went through it, well. *btw mira, nnt aku smbung crita :)* Thursday, as usual, photographs before we headed home. Not to forget, we celebrated our class teacher's birthday, comel sangat. hugs and kisses to everyone, then off we go. Friday, at home with family. Saturday, we were planning to went back Seremban at five but bcs of that problamatic roadtax, we went back at ten. Five hours waiting, can you believe that? Sunday, RAYA RAYA! First time i woke up late, dress in pyjamas in the early morning of raya.

So, there you have it.
A little bit, just a pinch of what happened on this week
You know no more
Until then, toodles!

April's Taggoh

Sorry wani, aku baru nak buat. tak tau pun kena tag haha
Past few days, I googled your name, tehee
adding another one, mira sibukk!

*semangat rumah!, ahaks

1. Apakah hubungan awak dengan dia?
wani: kawan, duhh. kami tak lesbo, kann? kahkah
mira: dia .. sape ek? kawan eh? haha kawan laaa

2. 5 impressions terhadap c dia???
wani:
first, wani baik. bluekk
second, dia prs ke laut. am i right?
third, she might be an evil woman -_-
forth, a braniac, i purpose
fifth, muka gila ganas, but deeply inside she is vice versa

mira:
first, dia sangat gedikk
second, dia gila bunkface, that's what i know
third, she is SHORT. sorry i have to. terasa tak? -_-
forth, she is waaaay funny when she laugh
fifth, i know she loves me. kan makcik? HAHA

3. Perkara yang paling memorable yang dia lakukan kat awak???
wani: ... thinking
mira: ... i'm still thinking

4. Perkara yang paling memorable yang dia cakap
wani: Hudaaaaa haha or or "lu bikin gua panas"
lol i always laugh when that came out
mira: she loves to talk, and she talks a lot. and i am very sure, i love all of that. ahaks *kembang*

5. Kalau dia kekasih awak... awak akan...
wani: i'll go and date her and love her and do whatever a couple should do
but i won't, bcs i am not a lesbo
eventhough, i've been stated once. huahuahua
mira: bkn kau aku pnye ke? LOL eversince babe

6. kalau dy jadi musuh anda... anda akan...
wani: cubit dia lagi KUAT. yeee
although she doesn't feel a thing
mira: ejek dia gedik and pendek kuat kuat, AHA

7. kalau dy jadi kekasih anda.. dy perlu improve dlm...
wani: personalities, attitudes, appearence
but most important, sex
mira: like i said, her gender

8. kalau dy jadi musuh anda... mungkin kerana...
wani: dia mengada >.<
mira: dia ngokngek terlebih =P

9. overall impression ttg dy...
wanee SPASTIC! tehee
mira gedikk! it just has to be

10. the most desirable thing to do to her/him???
wani: aku da buat macam macam kann? nak lagi ke? haha (?)
mira: lari sekolah sama sama. outside the school, fyi

11. apakah anda rasa ttg pandangan org terhadap anda???
annoying, sarcastic, selfish
and i'm sure about this one, spastic
eventhough i am not

12. the character of u for urself...
sensitive, oh i hate that

13. on contrary, the character u hate about u...
told you, my sensitiveness that been controling the whole entire body
gaaahh

14. the ideal person you want to be with...
E.

15. for people who lyke u... tell something about them..
wear spectacles

16. ten people you tag...
1. Diyanah bt Abdul Muis
2. Nur Fatin Liyana bt Zulkifli
3. Liyana bt Abdul Muis
4. Nik Deanna bt Nik Abdullah Sani
5. Aqilah bt Ahmad Sedek
6. Mira Yusleeza bt Mohd Yusoff
7. Amir Asyraaf
8. Amir Faisal
9. Nik Nurul Nadzirah
10. Ummairah Nadhirah

17. no.2 anda ada hubungan dgn siapa???
single mingle. righttt?

18. is no. 3 female or male???
female, like duhh

19. if no. 7 dgn no. 10 have a relationship. is it a good thing???
i don't know. they don't know each other. let God decide -_-

20. no.1 belajar apa???
abc and 123 perhaps. LOL she is a scince stream girl

21. macamna dgn no. 5 dgn no. 8???
they are friends. you guys are not enemies right?

22. no. 4 single ka???
oh no she is not. U.

23. say something about no. 6???
mkck mira sangat gedik. kann?

24. no.9 kelakar ka???
nik? haha she is. waaaaaaaay funny :p

free the flag

lupa lupa,

MERDEKA MERDEKA MERDEKA

see how patriotic i am
the patriotism on the 31st of August
round up to 52
Malaysia is getting old

I want fireworks!

So loooooooooooong

I am going back to that so called hell
My awesome yet astonish heavenly hell
Oh how I wish I could just stay here, and school here.
like LIVE here :p

Time doesn't wait for me, i know, i've been told that
again and again
with the help from my mum and not to forget my dad
i haven't start packing anything, cause i think that i have enough time to pack later
*bongkak sangaaaaat -___-
cheesy creamy stressfulness

one week seemed very fast
i haven't got the chance to meet fatin
gila tak? sangat kaaannn? *rising veins
thank God, i met up the others. we had a blast, aren't we?
I said, rindu rindu rindu. does it mean anything?
pfft, who cares?
we all got our very own life, and eventually no cares what other people think
so do I, babe

again - i'm going baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack
or not?
i don't want to
but they had shouted, screamed very loud
saying "jangan nak mengada, you go there and study!"
and I said, "FINE" like safiyyah did, wait always. tehee
haven't finish up my homework yet
I can give a small tick to Biology, God seems to care about me
else, puuuh it's the same like before
bawa balik pun tkd guna, haha

ammonium fertilisation or ammonium fertilization
is there any difference?
somebody help me with my report
*stress crawling in my veins, reaching up to the brain

Additional plus, plus

makcik mira, see? i'm awake till 5 o'clock. now, it is time for sahur

much more bigger
much more fatter
indeed larger
not to forget heavier.

i've been aiming to at least slow down my temptation to food and decrease these fatty lumps in my body, eversince this is a fasting month, but i can't. azan je, MAKAN -_-
am i striving? Nope :p

few of my classmates have stopped me to not to do hw, and i said "okay" they are bad people, cruel, villains. NO, spastics!
this means that i don't have to do homework, right? gosh, what am i blabbering about?
there are tons, tons of homework slash schoolwork to be done
and i have at least 3 more days to finish up all of it
*i think i can, i think i can't
pfft, i've tried (big laugh)

rindu, rindu, rindu. i miss my .. oh i'm lost

E.

Damn Bored -_-

The Brand New

nor me can explain about this same old brand new. i am not going for a straight forward paragraph, but something literally overlap, some undefined meaning of a whole sentence. got what i mean? no you don't, i know :)

i repeat it again, there are ups and downs living in that new environment. living with others from each directions. people are crawling to the center, not the north neither the south. exclude the east and the west. we are holding our target, aiming for the one and only. i am tired of being pushed, kicked all the time.

frankly, i thought i have them. that bunch.
i had enough with this hypocrite stuff, pretending, acting. girls, you guys are not drama queens, neither am i. please, i am sick of it.
once, just once, i need a feedback, a repay whatever that i have done. show me that i am one of your friends, and that's it.

i miss my past, my present and believe me, i can't wait for the future. hoping for no dissapointment, no struggling for bad activities. i do not want to live alone, i am not good in that. at least one, that particular angel, who will always be by my side and talk to to me whatever and whenever i want.

hope and faith;
Huda, is in that angel's head :)

to all and old

Wonder of the World

as i went through people's blogs, it have gave me inspiration to activate again my bloodish blog. so, i will like to thank them :)
this bloodish blog *again, has not been updated for the past few months, do anyone want me to recover it? what the hell am i saying? gosh, *geeky*

Oh My God!

i miss all of you. not just you, but you, you and you. arghhhh! i am crazy, i've been told that. they are nice, they treat me like a princess, a princess from neverland, oh how grateful am i *smiling with pleasant.

about my new kingdom, actually, it is not that brand new, pfft.
there are ups and downs, like always - UJIAN DARI ALLAH SWT, i went through that alright. i recovered, so were they.

to all Muslims of the World, happy blessed Ramadhan :)

take it easy

don't take it wrong, but ..
tak payah la nak obses sgt dkt org tu
kalau'bercinta' pun, relex lahh

what a mess

June June June, then July. long time no see, people! how are you? "fine, thank you" :p i have no idea what to write

school seems okay, umrah was fun.
andand, i miss my friends, and my mum, and my dad, nd my sisters, and my brother
all listed? good

should i end now? okay
my last sentence is "your beloved Michael Jackson is dead"
may Allah bless him

toodles, xoxo

WAIT, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO:
8th June, Aqilah
16th June, Diyanah and Liyana
24th June, Anis Najwa, she is my sister :D

we can go now ..

a love from a sister

i found this,

I MISS sOmeONe Dat I reaLLy...... cayang.... When will my sis will be home again.... she only comes home whenever da school got olidays.... u know wat.... she doesn't always come home cuz.... x kan la nak ulang-alik sane ke sini..... do u have ever miss someone? comment me i just wanna know.... no... just kidding... my sis has gone 2 MRSM... duh... dats y i miss her soooooooo much..

have you read it Fatin Liyana?

numbness

I WANT MY FRIENDS TO BE HERE WITH ME, RIGHT NOW!

take that you bloodish yellow! *evil laugh

another three more days, i will shout, "I'm home!"
be SMART, don't wish for the DUMB

bytheway, happy birthday NIK DEANNA! why didn't you pick up my call? :p
hugs kisses

boom boom, shake shake

hey people of the world '?' so for today i would like to start with 'i miss my thing' that includes family friends home super gadget stuffs and of course my bed. HAHA why am i laughing? seriously i am getting super lame everyday. with a whole new environment and people, i'm becoming one of them. but i'm not saying that they are lame, just we are not being expose to the outside world, so that refers to lame, is it?

duhh, nevermind. about three weeks i left home, and old school. for me, a lot had changed. friends of course. but not all of them. just a few bee with an itchs, ohooo it's payback :p i'm in a rush. Faisal, take care of Nik. i'm begging. the only person that she can count on is you, i'm no more there. please, pretty please. just stay by her side, i thank you

by the way ..
Sport day was hell FUN! everyone was hell 'SEGAMAT' ? don't ask me what kind of word this is. but they use it, and it is officially a word, to them.

B R A S S I
that's the way we spell BRASSI
Go BRASSI
Go Go
Go BRASSI

Lots Of love (LOL), Huda

Kopi Radix

what a dumb dumb headline. i know people, somehow i am laaame

my dumb dumb internet still not working, i hit it like thousand times now. still, no any massive impression from that dumb dumb thing. so, i am at my dad's office, 'qada' everything that has been left aside. here i am, people, talk to me now
i am here, what are you guys waiting for? like you ever want to talk to me. duuuhh

i read liyana's blog. yeah girl, we were stalkers! and a very good one. HAHA good thing we took all the chances, plus those crazy stuffs we did. what a very good thing, though it change everything. but not that 'everything'.

but for me, giving up something that we really dream of to someone we love, is a good thing right? i want to be a good girl, and i need someone to help me :)

p/s; i am increasing my blog post, don't mind reading it

shining teeth

so, should i say "i'm back!" or should i just shut this mouth. hm, like anyone cares. i get it all right :)

moving on, nothing quite special happened on those previous weeks and i got nothing to write. one thing that really excite me is i got my one gold chance! thank you God. i was hoping for this so much. i can't wait to meet them

that's all, i am not in the mood,

sorry thank you

hell of mine

can i ask something? okay, i want to ask something, can i? if you don't mind. i really want to know. what is so good about 100th post? there, i asked. care to answer? thank you.


i deleted 897 to 493. i hate WOW

"what a weird"

to get to the next point, like i have those previous points. i still need to think about the future, ahead future that i will live on. so, i set in mind, what ever happens, happens. a people was dying last week, i got the chance to give out something. i am trying my best to become a good person, to myself, family and this perfectly perfect world.

just to inform you again, i HATE Physics. it sucks maaaaan! what the hell is she teaching? i am so gonna fail this first test, God knows why. learning that suckish subject on my own still can't bring me to the A. i am not being mean or anything, you can ask them if you want. tears falling, blame the voice! huh

i haven't heard any amazing legendary from her yet. she is too excited bcs of the rumors, spreads all over the world will make her jump very high. i bet you are wrong.

i'm OUT

we heard bells

i have no idea what to write in this blog, nothing is important to let you know. well, i live my life, not the fully, yet! will be :) i had a problem controlling my emotions, no one knows why. freaking Question mark, i don't even know why. like i said, i have too much problems. yeah, too. much. having the people in my class is not that hard, just for certain people. and it includes A!

as you may know, A is getting worst and worst, day by day. i had enough! is it annoyed you if i write about this so-called-sarcasm? better luck next time.

and for today, my school held a Road-Run. you guys are familiar with it, i know. okay, i didn't found any bruised yet. hopefully, no! i don't want one, thank you. (touch it with your finger tips) lol. i ran, and ran and ran and stop and walk. that's how i done this Road Run thing. why do we need it? i am still questioning that. dotdotdot the Purples won! first prize, but still we won the second prize. kecoh much?

he wore yellow this evening, the other was in black, as usual. awwwwwwww!

p/s; i love you Fatin! we met again :)

i would start this post with a very huge crazy laugh HAHA. crazy enough? okay good. lets begin with .. i'll run tomorrow! okay so what? fyi, i'm bored. this is another crappy post. i miss my friends, in and out. (means here and there) pfft, see! too obvious my friend. world is too huge, i'm lost in the middle :p being an assistant to Faisal is not that hard, i have a problem with the BKK stuff. beybeyh! i am LAMEEEE. to dudes too. so, school is not that hard, neither easy. okay, it is fine. i am holding too much pressure from the surroundings. they won't shut the damn mouths! SARCASM is what you called, ding dong (!) i don't want to hear your whatsoever talk, ok? it gives me headache. do you mind? SHUT UP? thank you

i am texting with him now, so WOW! (alah minah ni, tu pun nak kecoh!) i'll get that a lot, right Nik? haha problems problems. too mush pressure, i'll burst to tears. i get along with both of them, kinda fun. they are sweet, sometimes spicy. c'mon Huda, you can do more than that! huh

btw, "Serunai Malam" still in my head. Umar and Safiah :p you you, i i

almost to big-headed

I don't approve obnoxious behavior, but they can change.
I don't approve sarcasm, but can they stop?

Enough is enough. You spit it out too much; I can't handle all of that. Don't made me want to puke in front of your face, or at your face? I'm not saying that I hate you; just sometimes you made me want to hate you. It's not good, isn't it?

Wake up girls! Don't you realize? It has been too long; WE kept it alone there, in our little heart, waiting for someone to say "hei, nampak tak tadi?" to let you know, I found mine ! yeay yeay lol :p at least there is someone to share something about this with me.

If I want to say something, the best advice for you is SHUT UP ! Girl, give me a chance. We have our own thoughts.

"Kami mudah mengumpat" that is our kelemahan. right Nik Deanna ? lol, she'll be wearing white this Monday. no more, bajuku ungu

"school made me sick"

Days without them are kinda weird. harsh i purpose. missing them would be a total 'yeah' ! as usual, life goes on. someday somehow, i'll get use to it.

"homeworks make us suffer". a very popular sentence that has been shouted by most bloggers. like yes, but i try finish it up little by little. not that hard. YOU CAN DO IT, I CAN DO IT :P

xxxxxxxx

a long time without posting any entry made me feel like i need to talk craps. and i am. people won't read mine, so who cares ?

a new person came up in my life is good. throw away that stinky old out of my head.
AB AB AB AB AB AB AB :P kinda familiar ? shattap !

what i learn;
taking off your shirt is uncool

Take Care, Babes

i'm dedicating this to my dearest friends that are going to a new school. Diyanah and Fatin Liyana :( i'm going to miss you guys so much ! yesterday was our burst-to-tears day. our plan was a success ! actually, i'm happy they got this chances to fulfill their dreams and get a better education. but in this deeply heart, i really want to shout at them and say "Guys, don't go !".

i cried three times yesterday, ckg Ridzuan's speech really did made us cried. if he is a woman, i'll hug him tightly ! - if he is a WOMAN. me and Aqilah, we cried a lot. we shared our tears together. as you all know, my best friend since 4 years old is moving, and my dearest best mate is moving too, tomorrow ! huhhh

last period of school, everyone was crying. hugging and apologizing were heard from each of people mouth. even enemies can turn to friends. but still, life goes on. i'm still hoping, but i'll accept whatever it has been written. God knows better :)

to Diyanah, i'm going to miss you soooooooooooooo MUCH ! i won't forget every single second that we have spend together. the cycle part, the screaming-bcs-of-hoy-guys part, everything ! love you dear :) the friend's charm, i try to buy it tomorrow. don't you dare forget about me ! haha

moving on to Fatin, i miss you badly already. sorry i can't join you guys tomorrow. "be strong, stay strong, babe !" read my message to you everyday ! okay ? love you too babe. i'm still holding it, our friendship

and to all that will be moving away, sorry and thank you for being my friend. and i won't forget those laughs and chit-chats with you guys !

Hugs Kisses <3

my new Jo

okay, of course, he won't read this unpopular blog. so, i just write everything about him. first of all he is SUPER GORGEOUS ! like, super. slightly to superpowers. our "talk" is good, relieving, melted. gosh, he's cute ! haha 100% of cuteness. my Johan is on his way, LOL. well, i have to say, you have that very awesome astonish gorgeous siblings ! duuuuuuude, don't take off your shirt, im begging !

don't say a word, wait for US to tell you the BTS

stay strong

what a week, what a day. i'm crawling to reach that very top level. two thousands stairs to achieve, i'm doing it slowly. so tomorrow will be the last day. we're planning to cry out loud together. haha plan to cry ? pfft. this week, well, for me, it's the very crazy week ever ! so CRAZY ! we did crazy stuffs, like something that not expected. well, it's a relief :) you are mine, i am yours :P

old Jo, put a hole in your ass. tak payah nak perasan la wei *evil winks

ting TAG toe

Rulez!!!
A) People who have been tagged must write their answers in their blog.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz. (Those that are tagged cannot refuse.)
C) Continue this game by tagging 8 other people : Nik Deanna. Fatin Liyana. Zafirah. Amir Faisal. Aqilah :) Sha. Haziq. Serena Inez


What have you been doing recently?
listening to this slow-mo songs

Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
of course ! esp, when the battery is low

What happened at 10am today?
i was sleeping at Yana's Siaster's

When did you last cry?
hmm, let me think, last week cs of the SBP result

Believe in fate/destiny?
100% yeah

What do you want in your life now?
boarding sch perhaps, but i want a new laptop

Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
umbrella mostly

What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
closing those sleepy eyes :P

What bottoms are you wearing now?
underwear ?

Whats the nicest things in your inbox?
what ? nothing is nice in my "Inbox"

Do you tend to make the relationship complicated?
for what ? i don't wnat things to be complicated

Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
nope, everything is mine. or myb my parent's cs they bought it for me

What was the last movie you caught?
BrideWars ! super cool movie ;D

What are you proud of?
my fingers ! LOL don't ask me why

What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?
ok, let me check it first. it says, "i love you" ! happy ?

What was the last song you sang out loud?
Thinking Of You- Katy Perry. goddie best !

Do you have any nicknames?
Hud ? right ? i don't know. my family call me "kaklong" *smile

What does the newest text say?
"Buku Physics lupa lagi !" haha it's from Dee

What time did you go to bed last night?
4 in the morning (c'mon, sing that song, beybeyh !)

Are you currently happy?
nope, not happy. just a little bit. not that much

Who gives you the best advise?
no one's giving me advise

Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
Wooo ! i love it

Who did you talk on the phone last night?
no one, my phone's battery was out

Is something bugging you now
like yeah ?

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
A comment from this person, God it' hilarious. act, it's disgusting

*AQILAH knows how to rule the world ! xP

thinking of you

yes, you. it's about you know. oh i'm thinking of you. lately, this is what i do. you can't hear my thousands words now, because you are away. i miss you so much, forever if you insist. i hate losing people, especially best friends. world knows that i need to sacrifice something, letting this people go is the hardest for me. still remember the time we said the last goodbye ? we cried together right ? *thinking. i wish that won't happen anymore, but i can't change God's fate. i'm not living in this world permanently. i'll die, you'll die. if somehow, we meet again, and you hate it. i'll accept it, carry that big dignity dear. don't let it fell.

i'm not an angel nor a devil. say i'm a vampire, i'll say "i love you" ! i wish i can turn back time, and live in past, the waste past that i ignored. spending a night talking to you is enough, it helps complete my wish lists *smile. this fairytale wishes are absolute not coming true.

now, i spend my night thinking of you

till eternity

Diyanah Muis, this girl yeah. Very pretty, very smart, too intelligent :) I've known this girl since I was four, four right? We grew up together, kind of together. We don't argue that much; yeah I can still count them. Old times, kindergarten and primary, I used to call her AKAK. I don't know why, maybe because her twin sister calls her that. I am more mature now, cehh, so I decided to call her Diyanah, better for a sixteen y/o girl right? We love to cycle, and we are on our 'sugar-diet'? lol, it do lost my weight :) bffffff, F stands for ?



Fatin Liyana, I've known her since form two, actually we are best buds since standard two I guess, but she was away to Vietnam, but we met again last two years. We approve ourselves as husband and wife. Today I'm the husband, tomorrow I'm the wife :P we are like meant to be together, everywhere she goes, I'll be there. We are like twins too, because our birth date is next to each other, and her identity card number is close to mine, coincidence? Yeah! Plus, she is a pretty babe, very pretty :)



Nik Deanna, one of my super awesome friends. She knows how to have fun, fun with capital F-U-N. She sits next to me in class, to lab, to assembly, to toilet? We will be together. We share our thoughts, and love exchanging hot stories and problems. Teacher, she is a good "Pengawas Rakan Sebaya". Making fun of our teachers is the must! You should hear our laughs, dude it is loud, maximum of loudness. Thank God I found her :)



Zafirah, she is cool. Like, super cool- no superpowers. You can't easily attack her, because she got her own personal branded weapons. Her English is puuhh, not like mine though. She's very good at it. She is my JB soul mate, old times. But know, she's my updater, new hot songs, I'll refer to her. She is easily pissed, so you better watch out. But still, she is nice, internal and external :) I won't lose you, no matter what ok?



My Bunchy Guys- Faisal, Asyraaf and Shazrul, they are the best boy friends ever. So nice, so sweet. Very caring, and they got money! So again, I won't bring my purse anymore, lol. Faisal is my bodyguard, so after 10 Feb, you are going to be my full-time first class bodyguard, since Yana 's sisters won't be here anymore. Serve you right :P Asyraaf or as known as Budak Penggawa Timur, he is like I mentioned it before. Too hilarious, many stupid jokes ;D Happy life in Johor, dude. Next one will be Shazrul, this guy, you won't regret having a friend like him. Too kind, he cares about others. So down to earth kind of boy. Very good in bowling though, bowling superstar wannabe? haha



Friendship is important; I do not dare to lose you guys.

blunk current head ?

And I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him..
I'd lie

what a coincidence ? like a huge coincidence ! currently, im listening to this, thanks to my Nikky Dea :) so my dream being an immortal is 100% not coming true, so does faisal's. dreamt that he is in heaven after he got bitten by a shark, when surfing this animated waves, very cool animated waves. wow, as you think it is.

yesterday i watched Bridewars. hillarious yeah ! you know what, lately, everything that i watched, it just telling me about the beauty of friendship, best friend and all of that. c'mon, i know i'll be missing two of them, im not getting too emotional though. but it is true. ok, bridewars is about bestfriend, most of songs i listen to are about pure friendship, and guess what, commercial pop me out too. and i stopped by at Nik's blog, she wrote something about friends, and yes babe, i think this is the right time too. since everyone is moving away.

ps; i do not gamble, and i want to be an immortal. God knows why :P

glorious holiday

i think i am getting old, the coughs tell me why. and my back, God it hurts. i really need a medical checkup, don't you think ? i know one person who'll agree with me, my bodyguard for sure. he just can't stop saying that im old. isi borang dude, go to hell xD so, i keep on coughing and sneezing, when this would end ? huh,

last day, i went to midv with my friends. bowling, movie, sushi ? haha yummy lol, asyraaf is a big eater, and that explains it. nevermind, it his money though. one thing i realize, i dont need to bring my purse when hanging around with this bunchy guys cs they'll pay everything. like most of it. cool, rather than carrying that heavy bag, pfft. ding dong, im OLD !

so tomorrow is another day, i didn't finish reading my Reader's Digest yet. ok, maybe i didn't finished up my homework yet. to much to cover. moving on beybeyh ! <3 i need to be an immortal,

no reservation

my day was okay, 80% okay, i think ? pfft nthg much to say, my body stayed active till 4 o'clock, and my daydream ended about 5.30. a very good rest. i bought rings, my mum paid for it, of course. like yeah, i won't use mine :P Sister's ring. no purity ring like the JoBros. Just something that we decided to wear it together, like Sisters For Life ! *wide smile. beautiful, yeah. price ? hmm 50+20, you do the math, cent is the better symbol.

last night news was not okay. yeah, for sure i am sad, still. but nevermind. i just need to work hard now, focusing on this not-so-cool world. at least i can accompany zafirah here, she will love it. sadly, my two best friends will be gone. not literally gone, just they'll be moving away, to a new school, TKC. i was hoping for this one, but i am not that lucky. if there is an elf, telling me that i have one wish, and i can wish anything this world have. oh my life is completely perfect. waiting for the world to spread a news about existence of elves.

....

i'll bear this in mind, "friends forever and forever and forever and more"
*laughing

one more to go

i am freaking out. the whole world is gonna fall down to me. this is the new beginning, the new temptation. im hoping 100% on it, and i pray for it every sigle time. but God knows better, what is the best. if i couldn't make it, i'll move on. do what is the best. throw away the negativity. and work hard for a bright future.

it is gonna be, what it is gonna be. and my 'BE' will be the best 'BE' that i have ever had. and i will thank everyone that helps me achieve this precious 'BE'

....

i don't gamble :P Laughing Out Loud

just so you know

my shiny day was okay. awkwardly awkward, my phone was not buzzing to tune. no one is texting me today, includes call. and of course, i am so sickien' boring ! i finished up my amazing vampire series already, and to dwindle this boredness, my piano helps. im working on Bella's Lullaby. still, im a bit frustrated, not bcs of that song, bcs my internal emotion problem. you want to know ? neah, forgt it, doesn't matter anymore.

i completed half of my schoolwork. that's a relief. and i watched THS A to Zac. kinda cool, but not so cool. my fav books now, would be the text books. so much to learn, so little time :P thanks to God, my round out number is 41, so i can chill, and memorized it next week. huh, i got nothing to tell neither write in this most surfed website (?) :D

i better shut my mouth now. toodles guys !

I do not hate you

*you do not hate me (opposite; every word)

you are the first, first look that caught my eyes. like a tingling magical came out from your face. it makes me wonder, why is that happening ? why me, the only one that can see the sparkly stars, the shiny new moon, the hallow dark night. since then, i found my speaker, who explained it very detail of everything that confused my head. i am willing to know the truth, not the lies. you have given me the chance, and i will not prove anything to you, cs for me, you still that last-time monster, that knocked my closet and freaked me out. you should hear the lullaby, maybe it will tell you something. makes you realize, that you should thank me, for whatever i have done to always make you happy. i am not asking for anything, just say I HATE YOU <3 that is not hard, isn't it ? i am holding your give now, waiting for you to take it back. replacing with the other one. share it with the new person. but to sorry, i can't find the touch, sweetest touch that makes me froze like a pure ice. you are neither the heat nor the light. you are not the rythm, let just say, you are not the ONE.

*hey, i can be deep sometimes :P

im acting like i dont care

karam di hati bilakah sudah ?
luka di hati siapa yang tahu

im going to stick with this poem, KOT ? haha since my beloved is running away from me, and, it is not my fault. sincerely, i didn't miss my blog, at all. but i missed reading yours. nothing much to tell, world is falling down on me. school works make my head spinning 360 degrees. and my oral is seriously suck, whole- top to bottom.

*heyy, im not complaining (big smile)

Apologizing

i woke up late, God i felt soooooooooo bad ! supposed to meet Faisal a.k.a my first class bodyguard at Miadin. Muahaha to have breakfast. Unfortunately, these sleepy eyes ruin the out-ing.

Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaan, sorry sorry sorry, dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki. i mean it ok ? please don't be mad. im an old lady right ? *nyanyuk :P we postpone it next week if you don't mind ? i still need you as my bodyguard LOL

one more SORRY-post, hmmm this is well describe that i am an old lady
i am 16. no i am 61. pfft

sorry to say

i wont have enough time to post blog, like last time. maybe if there is anything quite fascinating to tell, then i'll post it. i got oral to handle, i didn't finish up my assignment yet and for sure, i got tons of homework to do. and studies to recover

again, i felt sorry to myself

happy life Bloggers, toodles xx

fighting for one

oh how im willing to confront your stunning face, pulling your silky wtv type of hair, and kick your furry big butt out of my way.

hey, im not here satisfying anyone, and that includes you. im not chasing your beloved boy, you morown ! live in the fact that everyone has their internal changes, like their mind or something. and you don't have the right to rule my world; i unconditionally hate you so much. let him go, you got yours :)
...

willing to lend him to me ? *wild laugh with a tongue out :P

bodyguard helps a lot

1. Do you think you’re hot?

i am a very humble kinda girl, and i am absolutely think that i am not hot. haha too much explanation ?

2. Upload your favorite picture of you.




3. Why do you like that picture?

it is my very own seashells collection ! aha

4. When was the last time you ate pizza?

let me refresh my memories, last two weeks if i'm not mistaken

5. The last song you listen to?

Let me Sign by Robert Pattinson

6. What are you doing right now besides this?

sitting on my sofa, listen to those brand-old songs :D

7. What name you would prefer besides yours?

i like my name, haven't figure it out yet. nope, no other name

8.People to tag.

1)Diyanah
2)Fatin Liyana
3)Zafirah
4)Boi
5)Dalila

*btw Nik, you buat jgk, im not tagging you cs haziq already did

9. Who is number one?

my precious most glorious best friend '_'

10. Number three is having a relationship with?

ask her lah, i am not breaking any promisses

11. Say something about number five?

my guy loves her :P

12. How about number four?

super-cool boy, mys is the connection

13. Who is number two?

my husband-wife :D haha

book conquers all

Sun didn’t rise yet, birds didn’t chirp yet, I still can hear the morning breeze wind up my room. I got off my freaking tired butt of my bed. Went to the other room to wake up my two astonish sisters. Ok, enough with the description of today’s morning. As usual, we get ready ourselves by showering, putting the brand new white-blue uniform on, eating breakfast, and fetching schoolbag then off to school. And to let you know, I arrived late on my first day of school, but thanks to God, no one noticed it because everybody was busy searching their class line.

I’m in 4 Alpha, sit beside Nik in class. Because of a brand New Year and everything is new, we got new classmates, I mean new students- or friends? wtv. Do I need to mention their names here? You find it out yourself, ok? LOL. And I know this one, she came all the way from Terengganu, seems nice by the way. Start talking about teachers now, well, they are, quite strict, but still, fun- maybe? A bit, right?

I was overwhelmed with the new environment, new teachers and new class. And I absolute wish that my two most very best friend could be there sharing all the thoughts about the new things. So, my mood was kind of down today, thinking, worrying about a lot of things. You don’t have to know, this is a serious kind of madness that conquers my head. After recess, teachers were giving explanation or refreshments about what are going to happen in this brand New Year, and what subjects that suits us. A very much thank you, but I was so sleepy, waiting when to get my head on the floor- snoring *zzz.

I think I’m going to stop writing this crappy whatsoever post. I’ll post once a day maybe, or wait for an agenda to come. Toodles
Hugs kisses

She's just that girl

You send me something
I don't want to respond it but I did
You kept snuggling into my head
Forgive you by a fake begging

She won't stop torching me like this
I know what I do
And this whole thing
Got nothing to do with you
Please back off
Me and you
We don't deserve this stupid humiliation

Volvo c30

i woke up EARLY today, 10.41 ! early huh ? my eyes were searching for the sun, it's raining, heavilly 'raining cats and dogs' right ? ok whatever. and as usual, get off of bed, fetch my beloved Breaking Dawn and went downstairs. it was cold, yeah everybody was still snoring except for me and my mum. we are early risers ! huh, yea right. sat on my comfy comfy sofa and read a chapter. just ONE chapter. we decided to go to school to buy my books and to Bangi, to made an appointment with the dentist. so much for a gap ;P it was still raining, A WET SATURDAY. because of the 'too long' line and there were too many people infront of the bookstore, we changed plan to head home first and come back around 2. that is what you deserve for a last-minute preparation.

done with the books, cikgu Puteri's, registeration, we headed to KL to buy a car ? haha sort of. since HE loves car so much and HE hates our brand-old car, HE wanted to buy a new one. heh. *still raining. on the way, my parents were talking about my last-night friends. "byk nye name amir" aqilah ddk Alam Damai" knp tak pggil Deanna" and "mcm mn knl Geng Ampang" ?? god, you got a nickname for them ? and everything came out from my mouth, is the truth. don't worry haha. and this is the Oh-My-God part, i don't know why, but my parents adore Taqi so much, lol tepape jee

enough with the friends, geng Ampang and all of that, our first stop was at the Volovo's. we are trying to find the Volvo c30. you don't have to ask me why, watch the movie then you know why :) *spinning 360 degrees. damn it, they are not available at Malaysia yet. it'll be arrive before chinese new year. details much ? huh S40 caught my parent's eyes. but they wanted to think about it first, so THINK WELL haha

i am in my house now, writing this entry. WHAT. A. WET. SATURDAY. by the way, im not gonna be in the same class with ftyn and zaf next week, but don't worry guys, we still can meet up. right ?

hugs kisses

bar-be-que

last night is our last night. i mean it, act not that last. MONTHS right ? aha. so much to tell, we had so much fun. plus, we ate a lot ! chicken drumsticks, salad, spaghetti, fruits, sausages, kambing ! bekk bekkk we snapped a lot of pictures. dude, it's a must. and we wouldn't frgt our 'laugh out loud'

i'm waiting for the pictures, i'll update it later. and i think the pictures is enough to describe the whole night :)

andandand, thanks for coming ! haha

Double Date ?

last year- or yesterday. 31st december, 10 to 6 o'clock.
to make it clearer, friendship and lovey-dovey stuck in the head
talking, walking, laughing, joking. two over two
though, i cant describe love *lol :P

you dont get it ? uh, it's nothing for you to know
every step, memories are still here btw
we made a very great team

plus, i got a present- A PRESENT ! haha i'll keep it to myself

dotdotdot

jumping low

countdown 10 to 1, fireworks- buum baam buum, wishing people by text messages, playing Auld Lang Syne, all to celebrate this new new year, '09. opening a new chapter, the headline suits 2009 :)

2008 had been the best year of my life, too mush memories, too hard to frgt about it. and i wouldn't. yea, there were ups and downs, but i took it, maturely. at school, friends are the one who always keep me accompany. at home, family are the one who spend time with me telling stories. and when im bored, books and phone are the ones who cure this a little bit. it is time to say GOODBYE, to my beloved year :P

move on, 2009 is here, waiting for us to survive it. be ready, be prepare- not a marathon okie ? pfft. another couple of days, we are going back to school, meeting friends, learning new knowledge, reading new text books, it won't be that hard, is it ?

HAPPY NEW YEAR !
to all of you